…and now I’m a giant blob of emotion.
This isn’t a spoiler post. I’m not going to reveal anything that happens in the finale. Instead, you’re going to get the personal post that’s been waiting to come out since we were told this was the final season of Chuck.
The last two episodes of the series were made available on the NBC press site late tonight, just as I was about to try to sleep. I debated whether to watch them early or wait until Friday to watch with everyone else. In the end, I knew that the insomnia already needling me would just get worse knowing that the episodes were there, so I decided to at least watch “Chuck vs. Sarah”.
It’s good, you guys. So much better than any of the speculation I’ve seen. I am very glad that NBC opted to air the episodes back-to-back, though, because I think the emotional impact is stronger. Yes, I decided to go ahead and watch “Chuck vs. the Goodbye,” and I’ll tell you why.
Most of you know that I’ve been a fan and supporter of Chuck since before it premiered. Before NBC even picked up, really. Back in April 2007, Liz and I read about a show about a nerd who downloads a computer into his brain and becomes a spy. It starred two actors we liked from previous projects – Zachary Levi and Adam Baldwin – and looked like the kind of show we’d enjoy. So we decided that if NBC picked up the pilot, we’d launch a fansite for the show as a joint hobby. ChuckTV.net launched the day after NBC announced Chuck would be on the 2007-2008 schedule. It’s been quite a journey to this point, and I felt like I wanted to give the finale its due. Rather than watch it for the first time while hosting the live chat and friends & family at my house, I had the opportunity to watch it alone, without distractions. So I did. And I’m glad. If only so no one saw me laughing hysterically while tears were still streaming down my face.
I cried, sometimes at things that shouldn’t have made me cry, but because it’s the end, I cried. And I laughed. Out loud. And I clapped in delight. And I gasped in surprise. And I may have shouted “woohoo!” at one point. I’m sure there will be endless debate and “I wish they would’ve…” comments because, let’s face it, when have all the Chuck fans ever liked everything on screen? You know what I’m talking about.
But for this fan, it’s a beautiful ending to a show that has touched me more than any other in my life. I hope you all feel as blessed to have been a part of it as I do.